Tonight, I did something I
1) swore I would never do AND
2) Haven’t done in fifteen years (and I’m not that old)
I played nine holes of golf with my husband! At the prompting of a new friend, Beth, we scrambled with she and her husband. Prior to our tee time, I hit some balls in the back yard. Our neighbor’s shed took a beating, but I gained confidence in that I could at least come in contact with the ball.
I am not a person of high confidence when it comes to athletic prowess, largely because I am a clutz. When I was a child, I played Jr. golf. I could hear everything that my father and coach told me EVERY TIME I WENT TO HIT THE BALL. Needless to say, I was overwhelmed with self talk, all of it seemingly negative to me in my childhood, but truly meaning to correct my swing. ”Keep your eye on the ball. Extend your arm all the way. Swing straight. Pull your leg in. Straighten your back. Bend your knees more. Choke down on the club.” I was confused. I hated golf. Hated it. I swore that I would never play it again.
And then my husband became captivated by the game. When he began digging deep to pay for rounds, I knew that he was hooked. He does enjoy a challenge (me included). With his hobby becoming a habit, I began to see how much time I might spend with him if I were on the course. Also, I noticed how he spends sooooo much time on the course with my Dad, time that I create for him, but secretly wish that I had with my Dad.
So today, I braved the self talk. It was not so negative, but coaching me on. To some degree, I worked to remember it as I tried to look somewhat polished. Of course, my best balls came from tuning out my self talk and quickly striking the ball with confidence. Regardless of my self image, I suprised myself. There’s no doubt that I can drive the ball 150 yards, right past the hole and into the water. I really could play well, at least in the long ball game, if I wanted to. If I cared enough, I could try my best to be precise and work on a putting game. So do I …. want to play golf?
The women’s league has invited me to play in their Thursday night scrambles for the summer, and I think I just might. I have from October to May to talk myself out of it. Mercy me, a golfer. The next Nicole Castrale, probably not. Do they have port-a- potties on the LPGA tour?